It’s been a while…

Oh, hi!  It’s been quite a while since I have been on here.  Last year was a doozy.  There was some extreme ups at the beginning of the year and then everything kind of fell apart for a while.  Lots of extreme downs.  Loss, abuse, depression, stress, sadness, confusion. 

2016 was not always kind to me. 

Thankfully, there were a couple things that pulled me out of the black hole towards the end of the year.  I went from a horrible, crashing relationship to a beautiful, blossoming relationship in a flash.  It was so surprising how it all happened, but I met the most wonderful man name Brian AND I MARRIED HIM!  I know!!  Isn’t that crazy??  I think everyone we know thought we were crazy too, but it is like we were just made for one another.  I honestly didn’t think I would ever get married, but miracles happen, people.

You want to know something even MORE surprising??  If you have been following on Instagram, which I am pretty good at updating, you know we are expecting a baby in just a few short (well, long if you know how my pregnancies go) weeks.  We found out we were expecting the DAY after we got married.  I pretty much had a panic attack.  It was VERY unexpected and I freaked the eff out at first.  It took me a while to get used to the idea because I had planning on being a surrogate again for a new couple.  After the shock wore off, I came around to the idea of ANOTHER baby (my youngest is almost FOUR!) but that secret dread of it being a boy again crept up. 

I’ll admit it.  I’m a terrible person.  I have wanted a little girl for a long time.  Shoot me. 

Thankfully, I finally got my wish.  Our baby girl is due April 15th, 2017 which means I am almost THIRTY SIX weeks!!  AGHHHH!!!  Needless to say, I am SUPER excited about her arrival.  We actually plan to live stream her birth.  I am not sure how this is going to happen, but subscribe to the blog and Instagram to make sure you get updates! 

Life is not 100%.  When is it ever, right? There’s still a lot of stress going on.  We are looking for a new place to live without much luck.  Much chaos, but also much happiness, love and hope.  I have a lot of faith that this year is just going to get better!