Oh, hi! It’s been quite a while since I have been on here. Last year was a doozy. There was some extreme ups at the beginning of the year and then everything kind of fell apart for a while. Lots of extreme downs. Loss, abuse, depression, stress, sadness, confusion.
2016 was not always kind to me.
Thankfully, there were a couple things that pulled me out of the black hole towards the end of the year. I went from a horrible, crashing relationship to a beautiful, blossoming relationship in a flash. It was so surprising how it all happened, but I met the most wonderful man name Brian AND I MARRIED HIM! I know!! Isn’t that crazy?? I think everyone we know thought we were crazy too, but it is like we were just made for one another. I honestly didn’t think I would ever get married, but miracles happen, people.
You want to know something even MORE surprising?? If you have been following on Instagram, which I am pretty good at updating, you know we are expecting a baby in just a few short (well, long if you know how my pregnancies go) weeks. We found out we were expecting the DAY after we got married. I pretty much had a panic attack. It was VERY unexpected and I freaked the eff out at first. It took me a while to get used to the idea because I had planning on being a surrogate again for a new couple. After the shock wore off, I came around to the idea of ANOTHER baby (my youngest is almost FOUR!) but that secret dread of it being a boy again crept up.
I’ll admit it. I’m a terrible person. I have wanted a little girl for a long time. Shoot me.
Thankfully, I finally got my wish. Our baby girl is due April 15th, 2017 which means I am almost THIRTY SIX weeks!! AGHHHH!!! Needless to say, I am SUPER excited about her arrival. We actually plan to live stream her birth. I am not sure how this is going to happen, but subscribe to the blog and Instagram to make sure you get updates!
Life is not 100%. When is it ever, right? There’s still a lot of stress going on. We are looking for a new place to live without much luck. Much chaos, but also much happiness, love and hope. I have a lot of faith that this year is just going to get better!
